Written by Virginia White
Whilst we were in the desert of Israel, I heard the Lord say…. ‘You have to go backward to go forward!’….. What does that mean???
There is a ‘Liminal’ space often in our lives, a time in between, a liminality of being in a state of suspension. A transitional period or rite of passage where the person lacks social status. A threshold between two planes, a period of transition leading to new prospective. A liminal state! The time in between assignments, the times before a couple get married is a liminal state. Twilight is a liminal time, a wound is in a liminal state, hurting but not yet healed! We frequently find ourselves in this state, where the danger is that we become ‘frozen’ ’ and become permanently ‘ liminal’ and therefore unable to move forward or backward. The state between two trapezes s as you leave one, but haven’t caught the other yet… the scary zone where we dare not stay too long!
So on Gozo, a small island off Malta, I had decided there couldn’t be any milk because there weren’t any cows! Desert rocky scrub and no fields except for a few cereal crops! No milk!
One day walking out early in the morning mist, I heard a cow moo! Where are they then?
Then my Lord spoke into my heart: ‘The fact that you don’t see something doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist!’ So I am guilty of assuming a great deal that is not actual fact, because I can’t see it!
The explanation was myopically simple…. They live in biers! It’s too hot to graze and the Gozoan’s wouldn’t waste their tiny space grazing animals, it is a tiny Island.
The past morphs into pathways of memory, some good or bad, and we leave them there… what else can we do with them?
So in this place of retreat, every morning I walked the same deserted road leading towards the sea, although all roads stopped far from the edge of the dramatic lime stone cliffs.
There I heard the words, ‘ I will show you a lost memory’ so not being very retrospective I didn’t much relish having to delve into a ‘lost memory!’
Then came these words… a very deep root of ‘abandonment’ before your life time, your mother was not ‘safe’ neither was she able to deal with being ‘put aside’, not only in her parentage, but in her Jewishness, and here is the tie: ‘Stella my beloved may not fully understand – but you must! Your seeking and longing to help the broken and abandoned is from this root! The abandonment has followed you. Broken relationships, marriage, abandonment, your own son knowing the same abandonment, this thread so far unbroken is running through your family to take away this deeply felt truth. You have to receive yourself, if you want to receive deep revelation from God… you have to receive yourself without the lies that say, ‘you can’t… who do you think you are… you can’t hear, because you are not acceptable.’
God was saying ‘ you offer me your heart, let me break your heart with healing, so that this echo of abandonment rampaging through your mothers and sisters and sons lives. I am going to pour in my healing ,so that you can receive and accept yourself without this heavy weight clinging to your family, and know that you are anchored into a sure hope, that this chain is at last broken! I have selected this time for you to stand in the gap for your family. ’
‘For the son of man has come to save that which was lost! ‘Matt 18 v 11
So I prayed the prayer… in your name Yeshua I break this chain. At that exact moment there was a huge boom!! They were blasting the rock in the next valley, but for me it was a confirmation of Gods power to break this dark power! Suspended in mid-air, unable to move on, our saviour has broken the chain!
To receive and know HIS deep abiding love, you have to receive yourself, so that like a master trapeze artist, our Yeshua catches you, and you are safe!
Yeshua is here, someone who is the destroyer of darkness, to ask Jesus to break the chains saves you pounds and dollars in therapy! ( as Howie often says) To know his very great love! To know we are not abandoned we are loved by one who knew ‘abandonment’ who is irresistibly drawn to our brokenness, and took all our ‘gunk’ upon Himself!
So below is an altar in the desert….. with all the stones of my Sh’ma ‘ dancing’ family. I needed to share with Rosie the tears and power of the desert moments, so we prayed over all of you, and placed a stone on the altar, for those even to come in the future. We danced ‘Who Am I’ and a victory dance! We are not abandoned, we are ‘sought out’ by a loving God. We pray that you the ‘living’ stones….will know this deeply. Gen 49 ‘ Blessings from above, and blessings of the deep!’
Hosea 2 v 14 ‘ I will allure her, will bring her into the wilderness and speak comfort to her. I will give her her vineyards from there, and the valley of Achor as a door of hope; she shall sing there, as in the day when she came up from the land of Egypt.’
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